In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities. ~Janos Arany~

Song: The Remedy by Jason Mraz

Hey..I didn't drop off the face of the planet, in case anyone has been wondering..LOL. Yesterday I just didn't feel very good at all. :( The GREAT, GREAT thing about the weekend was Me and Nate got to talk A LOT!!! I called him yesterday, cos my computer was defragging..mmm while eating my salad and we talked on the phone for a while, then got online and talked for a bit. We talked on the phone TWICE this weekend. =D After we talked, I ate dinner..enjoyed my hot dog..LOL..I'm such a freak! :� and then what the hell..I..oh yeah, watched on Dateline about Whitney Houston..it was really soooo sad. I couldn't even bare to watch it. She is so talented, and I don't know why she did that to herself (get hooked on drugs). What a shame. Oh, I also saw The Breakfast Club twice this weekend..I can't get enough of that movie!!! After Nate getting me hooked on Comedy Central, I will definitely watch that more.

After that, I watched the Sonny and Cher True Hollywood Story on E..was interesting but I fell asleep through half of it, so I shut the TV off and was out cold. I had some odd dreams. In fact, they were so weird that I am just going to keep them to myself..sorry. :/

My dad is STILL off from work. Gah! I wish he'd just go back already!! He seems to be off ALL the fricking time. Anyway, I miss Nate so much. :( Why can't we be like 'normal' couples and see each other all the time? :( Why do we have to be SO far apart? Argh. I get jealous reading some diaries where girls get to be with their boyfriends, and see them and do couple stuff. Sure, me and Nate had that at the beginning of this month and we'll have it again in December, and after that but I want it NOW. Am I selfish? I don't know..I just want to be with my honey, EVERYDAY! Argh. It's so difficult..I know we'll survive but I seem to NEVER get what I want in life. I constantly have to go through stuff, adversities..etc..maybe I have to because God feels I can handle it, or maybe to appreciate things later on..I don't know..it just sucks at times. I hope December comes FAST and these next two months FLY by.

Anyway, like I said I still don't feel well. :( Cramps galore, etc. I am excited because this week is going to have some great TV..but yet, I am on this emotional rollercoaster. One minute I am smiling and laughing about something, and the next I'm feeling angry and hate the world. :( Gaahh! I hate periods!! So much, in a way happened this weekend but it's all a blur in my mind. My aunt MIGHT be getting a new dog..there is a Basset Hound right near where my uncle lives that needs a home BADLY and my aunt is a huge dog lover, and wants one. She said it's cute so she MIGHT take it home. Hmm that should be interesting. It's name is Harley and it's copper.

What else to ramble about..this site was being a BIATCH this morning. It wouldn't let me on..I almost RIPPED the hair out of my head..lol. This computer is as SLOW as shit too. Gah, I REALLY hope this day won't suck. I've come to a conclusion..sometimes you can give people advice till kingdom come, but it doesn't mean they want it and there's NO guarantee that they will take it. I really want to stop in a way offering what I think, or what I want people to do but it's such a part of me, so very much ingrained that I can't help WANTING to help people out. It's like, I am addicted to helping people. I don't know why, either..because I know a lot of people wouldn't spend THAT much time on me. It's just..odd.

Well anyway, before I ramble some more..here's something I stole out of Carly's diary...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Wow..I have a LOT of issues!!! LOL. I told my mom and she said "You need a make-over" ha. I don't think she was talking about my looks either. I do agree with most of the results though. I don't know if it's depression or my period, but yesterday and saturday I downed a LOT of raisinettes and sunflower seeds. It's probably just my period making me hungry a lot..don't know. I find comfort in food. Oddly, I have a good body..not perfect..but good. That's (food) is what I turn to when I'm down, troubled, etc. Well, along with music too. Gah, for some reason I keep waking up at 12..EVERY morning now..grr.

I can't stand some of the music out here cos they play the same songs over and over..however yesterday I heard a song on the radio I haven't heard in AGES.."Never a time" by Genesis. I forgot JUST how much I LOVE that song. :) Boy can I relate to this line.."You live your life locked in a dream, Where nothing is real, and not what it seems." *sigh*

Gah, I better go..I have a HUGE headache and I need to lie down and eat something badly. After this shit ends in days from now, I must go to the doc. Prolly have to be put on birth control..which will also help out later with..ahem..moving on..lol.. I've been resting a lot, so it's all good. I think I may need another shower soon. I have to be back on at 11, to talk to Nate though. I can't wait!!! =D Have a great week everyone. ~Stace

Woo hoo! This month is nearly over. *smiles*

PS: I edited my Cast page somewhat if ya'll wanna check that out...and some other things under Extras too.

Happy New Year!!! - 2005-01-01
new update @ LJ. - 2004-12-01
christmas card... - 2004-11-28
update on LJ - 2004-11-18
Happy Halloween!!!! - 2004-10-31

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